What Now?

Life has been difficult lately. I am in the process of change, and I hate it! To tell the truth, I go kicking & screaming. I would much rather have things nice and predictable.

I am moving from the role of "mother raising kids" to "mother watching kids fly"

Don't get me wrong my kids are wonderful, I am very proud of them and I love to see them grow... I just wonder... What Now? How will things change from here? Will I really be able to meet the challange that is ahead?

I ran across a friend"s blog today, and thought I would share it. It speaks volumes to my heart.

A PRAYER FROM MY JOURNAL... FOR ME AND FOR US.Lord, So much of this life is lived in between; between the now and the not yet, between arriving and departing, between growing up and growing old, between questions and answers. Lord, help me... help us not to live for the distant day when the in-between will be no more, but help us have the courage to step into that sacred space of the in between --- knowing that this is a place where life is transformed.Psalm 46 is a good one! Well all the Psalms are good. They are songs that come from the heart. This Psalm talks about a tool that God uses to shape busy people like you and I: God speaks in a still small voice - He challenges us to turn down the roar of our lives in order to recognize His voice."Be Still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations. I will be exalted in the earth. The Lord Almighty is with us." Being still is not doing nothing. Being still is about quieting ourselves and letting the character of God be where we place our trust. People who are willing to "be still" are better able to hear His "still small voice." Are you slowing down each day enough to hear his voice.---Terry

Pray for me would ya? It is dark in here right now, and the roar is deafening.

I'll keep you posted.

Freshness!

I just can't help it!!! With the newness of life fresh in the air, I can't help but feel alive and full of hope.
A friend of mine just gave birth to her second child... A beautiful baby boy! As I see the pics of him I am filled with awe! New life does this to me... I think there is nothing sweeter than a life just freshly kissed by the lips of God and sent here to impact His world!
It is easy for me during these times to contemplate my own life, revel in the gifts of life God has surrounded me with, and march on with new purpose, fresh focus, and a wonderful destiny waiting to be revealed!

Be~Atitudes: Learning God's heart

Be~Atitudes
Learning God’s heart

True happiness comes when I find myself at the end of all my resources
And still fall short;
It is there that I turn to God and find all that he has for me.

True happiness comes when I grieve and mourn in my life;
That is where I find the complete comfort of the arms of God
around me.

True happiness comes when I choose to humble myself;
It is then that those around me are ready to listen.

True happiness comes when I choose to look at the things in my life that fall short of God’s word and I choose to change in spite of the pain of growth;
It is there that I am satisfied and at peace with myself and my world.

True happiness comes when I choose to show compassion to those around me instead of revenge;
It is there that I am given the compassion I desperately desire from God.

True happiness comes when I love without any hidden agenda;
It is then that I understand how God loves me.

True happiness comes when I choose to bring peace to an uncomfortable situation, setting aside my wants;
It is then that others will see my life as a follower of God.

True happiness comes when those around me cause me pain for no other reason than because I choose to live and follow God’s plan for me;
It is there that I see God’s protection and know that I am not alone.

I am the salt! It is by my life that those around me thirst for God. If I choose to not stay in fresh communion with God, I lose my flavor and have nothing to offer.

I am the light of the world! Without the current of the Holy Spirit flowing through my life, I am no more effective than a package of light bulbs sitting in a dark room.

Revolution

Revolution!
July 13, 2007

Something has been changing in me for quite some time. I have had a lingering question in my heart that I have tried to deal with in many different ways. I have cast it out, I have sought counsel, I have searched scripture and examined my heart to see why the question was even there in the first place.
The question: “What does it mean by do not forsake the assembling together?”
I have wondered does it mean the old stand by response? Go to church! Or is there a deeper meaning? Am I running because I don’t seem to fit or is there a deeper reason? Why is it that when I do go to church my heart longs for so much more?
My heart longs to touch the face of God… I long to live my life as a reflection of his love for me and for those around me… I long for my outward life to reflect what my heart screams!
Then I received a copy of the book by George Barna; Revolution and as I have begun to read the first couple of chapters, my heart leapt for joy!
The Revolutionary mind-set is simple: Do whatever it takes to get closer to God and to help others to do the same. Obliterate any obstacles that prevents you from honoring God with every breath you take. Be such an outstanding example of the Christian faith that no one will question your heart or lifestyle- except those who see institutional survival as equally or more important than the alleged influence of the institution they defend.
Or, put more succinctly, the Revolution is about recognizing that we are not called to go to church.
We are called to be the Church.
What a liberation this is! What freedom! What responsibility!
So it is here that I begin to live this revolutionary journey!
Do whatever it takes to get closer to God!
I will do this by studying the Bible every day. I feel at this point to study the New Testament life of Jesus and the early church, not as just a bible reading, but to extract what life relevant jewels I can adapt into my life.
I will also return to daily worship of God. Through continual conversation and deliberate heart changing celebration of the grace and blessings he continually lavishes on me. Making a concerted effort to surround myself with tools that will assist me in this.
I will daily search for ways that my life can reflect the love God has for me and find creative fresh ways to relay it to those around me.
I realize that I cannot accomplish this on my own. And that to even to begin to attempt this will result in me being at the same place I am now… dry, thirsty, worn-out, frustrated and disillusioned. I need to actively seek help from the Holy Spirit and those around me. I must be open to constructive criticism, not be crushed by it. I must understand that constructive criticism is meant to cut out the dead parts of my heart so that life can again replace it.
I must continually grow in the knowledge that I am most content and fulfilled when I am growing and touching others in some way. To hide myself only brings death to my spirit.
I want to grow, I want to live, I want more….. I strive to experience ALL that I am created for. Letting go of what is behind so that I can press on toward the mark of the high calling in My Christ Jesus!

Welcome!

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My life is Rich, and it is a joy to share my heart with you and an honor to touch a life in the process.

So again Welcome!